Writing <3

Blahhhh.....

I'm getting so frustrated with my novel. I wish I could just be that amazing author where all these amazing ideas come into my head and I just churn out this amazingly fulfilling and life-changing novel. I love writing so much. I just wish that I could actually get something accomplished. I'm sitting in religion class right now, trying to come up with something to start off my novel with, and I just am stuck.
The worst thing is, I'm starting to feel the way I do when I'm getting bored with my story. I really want to write something great. I want to write something that will inspire someone and influence them. I've read so many amazing books. Like John Green's books for examples. They make me think in ways that I never thought about. They open my eyes to new ideas and that's what I want to do. I want to explore new ideas and concepts that haven't been written about before. Not that that will ever happen, but at least I can try, right?

But yeah. I'm just frustrated with my lack of creative talent and ideas. Ugh. I really want to get this novel written, but how the hell am I supposed to do that if I don't even know what the plot is or what's going to even freaking happen?! GAHFAJKDSFJAFAS

I'm just in a really bad mood today. I still have A WHOLE EFFING HOUR of religion class left, it's like, 80 degrees in this classroom with 100% humidity, and I'm getting super restless. And I HATE taking notes. It means I actually have to like, pay attention. Ew.

I just really need the weekend to get out of this class. Then I'll just have ONE week left!! WOOOOT!

Okay. I'm going to go be bored and tired and annoyed now.

x Sam x

Last Day

So, today in religion class, the girl doing prayer played this song where the chorus was something like, "If today was the last day of your life, what would you do?" It was something along those lines.

Anyway, I thought it was interesting because it got me thinking. Me, as the procrastinator I am, live out the motto, "Why do today what you could put off until tomorrow?" Seriously, I never get anything done. Like right now. I SHOULD be packing for my camping trip this weekend, but instead I'm writing this blog.

But I digress. That song just really got me thinking. What WOULD I do if today was my last day to live? Where would I go? Who would I talk to?
I think I would actually be really super depressed. Just because there are so many things I have yet to experience. There is so much time of my life that I've wasted. I mean, every day I spend my free hours on youtube watching fiveawesomegirls and fiveawesomeguys (I'm watching all of them from the beginning). And granted those channels are really amazing and wonderful, it's just that there are so many other things I could be doing.

For example, I've been wanting to make scrapbooks from my Freshman and Sophomore year of high school. I still have to make 2 birthday scrapbooks for my friends. My room is an absolute mess and you can't even see the carpet. I desperately need to find a job. I'm going on a backpacking trip in New Mexico in August and I haven't trained hardly at all. And I also plan on being an author when I grow up so I need to be writing every day.

And I haven't even STARTED on any of the above tasks. I just keep thinking, oh, I have all summer. But June is almost halfway over.

So what is the rest of my life going to be like? Am I just going to spend it wasting my time on pointless things? Am I ever going to become an author if my life is full of putting things off?

And again, I digress. So, if today were the last day of my life, I think I would take a bunch of friends and family and hop on a plane to Europe. I mean, if I wasn't going to be alive tomorrow, my parents wouldn't have to spend $11,000 to send me to school and one of my goals in life is to visit Europe (mainly England). So that's that. And I'd just want to spend it with people I love.

So anyways, that's my insightful ramblings for the day. And I just remembered I have laundry I need to get done in the next hour. Ima go take care of that.

Look for more blog posts within the next week :)

x Sam x

Bored out of my mind

Does anyone every have those days where you just can't type? I'm having one of those days. Taking notes in religion class, I spelled Catholic as something like, "CaHTtlic" That's so not even close. Ugh.

I have also found that my seat in the classroom sucks. I have to constantly move my head back and forth to see the screen. I probably look like a complete idiot trying to take notes here...

So, I have no idea what to talk about today, considering I'm not doing anything worthwhile. So I googled "journaling prompts" and here's some of the more ridiculous ones that I got.

How far would you go to win?
I'm a beast at everything. I always win.

Allow your pen to give voice to a part of your body besides your mind. Have this part write a letter to you. Write a response.
Umm...yeah no. What kind of question is this? As Hillary said, I think an answer would freak people out. Oh, here's a letter from my left thigh all about what it would want to tell me. wtf?

Write down everything that comes into your mind about money.
I need more.

If you could cook any meal for your family, what would you cook? Describe the meal and tell how you would make it.
wtf kind of question is that? Who would actually write about that in their journal?

Write an entry telling another person something that you are too afraid or reluctant to tell them.
Eff you.
On second thought, I don't think I would be afraid to tell anyone that. So this question was pointless.

Oh my god. We just played Toe, Knee, Chest, Nut. It's like head, shoulders, knees, and toes. What, am I four? I'm going to be a junior in high school next year and this is what we do in religion class. Wow.

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Credit goes here :D
This deviant has a lot of other really pretty things too. So you should check them out!

Well, I think that's all for today. I shall be back tomorrow hopefully!

x Sam x

Hooray Blog!

Currently listening to: Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

Yay blog!

Okies, after my last blog got all weird sending out stupid emails to people, I quit that site. Hopefully this site will be nice to me.

And I am going to try and actually write in this one. Fo realsies (I need to stop hanging out with Shelley so much :P) But yeah, I can't seem to keep a diary because I can't write fast enough to keep up with my thoughts. And plus, I only write about stupid stuff in there. I figured if I started a blog, I would actually talk about something worth talking about.

Anyways, summer school sucks butt. I hate having to actually think over summer. It's supposed to be time for relaxation and doing nothing. And I have homework every night. That's not exactly stress free. I'm not sure if I'll take a summer class next year. I mean, I think it will be worth it this year, but I just hate not having the month of June to enjoy.

But whatevs. It will pay off in the end.

So lately I've been spending an obnoxious amount on youtube. Mostly watching all the fiveawesomegirls videos I missed and I decided to subscribe to the fiveawesomeguys. Both great channels worth following :D And Alex Day just makes my day. Super hilarious.

Okies. It's late and I have school tomorrow. YAY! Not...

Nighty night.

x Sam x